Will this change everything?

So time is starting to wind down on the clock that I have set for myself.The clock leads to a vacation and on this vacation I will seek after something that I have always pondered upon; it is almost within my grasp. Real talk I am so fuckin nervous watching this clock wind down. I wish I could put into words what this all really means, breaking a stigma, ridding myself of an insecurity, the cause of laughter, breaking down that last wall that many people built against me, espically that one person. I promised myself that I would allw this to be the no turning back point that I need in my life. So it is almost here, I just hope it lives up to what I want it to be.